A typically fierce Mark Rudan appears to be having more and more trouble avoiding introspection, as his time at Wellington Phoenix appears to be drawing to an end.
The Wellington Phoenix coach is widely believed to be leaving the Kiwi club at the end of this season to take up the still-vacant managerial role at 2019 A-League entrants, Western United.
It's old news for A-League fans, however with each press conference the former Sydney United boss offers another glimpse into his perspective on the rumoured departure.
Rudan has been praised for revolutionising the Nix's culture, turning a club on the brink of dissolution under former boss Darije Kalezic, into fourth-placed Championship dark horses.
But with only five players confirmed for next season, if Rudan is set to leave, what's quickly garnering more interest is the sort of club he'll leave behind.
"For me, there is no pressure," Rudan said.
"The players and club have been through this over the years, all I can focus on is coaching this team and giving absolutely everything until the rest of the season.
"Some players enjoy certain coaches and they want to play for them, but it doesn't matter. We're focused on this season. I've been very open and honest with my players as well. They're adults, they make a decision based on them.
"That's life. Players come and go, coaches come and go, staff come and go. The only constant is the club."
Wellington fans could feel justifiably anxious about a throng of star names still to confirm for next season, including a few rumoured to be keen to follow Rudan wherever he chooses.
But given the club has only made the finals once in its history, Rudan attempts to focus on the here and now could be seen as understandable.
Only a couple of weeks ago pundits were speculating that the Nix could be usurped by their next opponents, Newcastle Jets, for a finals position.
Now without Golden Boot leader Roy Krishna due to suspension and Nathan Burns due to a knee injury, Wellington still expect to have a fight on their hands.
"(Roy's suspension) absolutely opens the door for other players, it's giving me a good headache because we're the third highest goalscoring side in the competition and we're in good form," Rudan said.
"Roy's only scored three of the last 11 goals we've scored. I still haven't decided who's going to start tomorrow.
"It's my job, it's what I get paid to do, we can go different ways tomorrow and we've still got one more day to figure it out. We've got plenty of players who've put their hand up."
"Nathan Burns is injured, he signed knowing that there was a knee injury, he has his good and his bad days, against the Central Coast he felt his knee again and he's also got an ankle injury, so that's just how it is."
Whatever happens between now and the end of the season, Rudan insists that the Nix will be stronger than ever.
"Expectations have risen hugely at this football club, both internal and external," he said.
"We've got to continue to improve and challenge ourselves. It's up to us to remain there and I think there's going to be twists and turns before the end of the season.
"We're a team that's full of confidence and belief."